So Friday Eric’s mom Diane came and got Leo and took him up to their place for the weekend. It was a big relief to me because I feel like I haven’t had a lot of breaks with Eric working at the dz so much. I was also looking forward to making some decisions about Mojo. He is a wonderful dog and we love each other very much, but he has been diagnosed with probable small cell lymphoma and the chemotherapy for him will run in the ballpark of 3500. It won’t even really go away; just put it into remission for a year or two and then it will come back. Eric left it up to me and it was a hard decision to make on my own, but as soon as Leo left with Diane and I had some time to myself to make it, it was clear we couldn’t possibly pay for something like that. I went thru a lot of crying last week, but I felt better as soon as I made the decision. I love him deeply and he is a great dog, full of fun and love. But we cannot do that, especially at this time of the year. I’m grateful everyone mostly left me to make my own decision. I just sat with him while I was thinking about it. Petting his ears and talking to him. I called my vet, Sarah’s husband Craig, and told him we could do what was needed to make his last months comfortable, but that we would not pursue chemotherapy. He understood and said he would bring home some anti-inflamitories for him and I could pick them up in the evening. They invited me to stay and have a couple glasses of wine and the 3 of us chatted into the night about all kinds of things. Saturday I went out to the dz with Eric and made 5 jumps, really good ones, too! I finally got my landings dialed in and I made 5 tiptoe landings in a row, it was really great. Eric and I were able to make 2 jumps together and I got to visit with friends and have a couple beers at the end of the day. It was pretty quiet with most of the fun-jumpers down at couch and all in all it was a very enjoyable day. Sunday my dad and sis rode motorcycles to my house to pick me up and we headed down to Stillwater for lunch. It was fun to be out on a cycle again, I haven’t been able to for awhile. Then that evening I went to pick up Leo from Hinckley. He was sooo happy to see me and I swear he grew and learned new words in 3 days! It was great to see him again and give him all the snuggles he wanted.
He is such a chatter box lately but still isn't into talking much in front of people, I think he's not into putting on a show, which is fine with me. His father and I are both like that, more introverted when it comes to performance so it shouldn't suprise me. I am working on his birthday stuff already; putting together a book on blurb.com about his first year of life. I'm not much of a scrapbooker, I can see the draw but I already have so many hobbies. Sewing and knitting crap is totally taking over our dining room table and office as it is. So a digital scrapbook is a good way for me to achieve a similar goal.
My friend Lane and her son, Matias and going with us to camp over the weekend on Madalaine Island, so we're pretty excited about that. I have to spend time tonight getting camping gear ready and the car loaded up. It should be really fun and I'm glad I got a little camping in this year, anyway.
All in all it's been a great summer. We have spent time on the farm every week or two, time out at the dz, almost weekly out to visit my dad & fly, lots of gardening, several trips to the zoos, a couple times to the beach, almost every saturday at the farmer's market, the state fair and just generally soaking up the summer. It's been really great and I feel like we've had a good balance of the things we like to do when it's nice out, so I'm satisfied. I'd love for summer to stay forever, but honestly, I like the transition to something different and I feel like harvest season is really special, too. So here's to the summerr of 2008, a time when now that it's coming to a close I can look back and feel both genuinely content and deeply satisfied.
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